Quarter Life Crisis

The question, "What are you going to do with your life?", has been daunting me these past few days, weeks, months, and possibly even years. 5 years ago, I had the answer to it all. I was 20 and I thought I knew what my life would look like at 25. And now that I'm 25, I find myself asking this very same question. At 25, I hoped for a career, a husband, a down-payment for a house, possibly a bun in the oven, be debt free, and wake up every morning feeling too blessed to be stressed. Minus the morning feeling, all of the above mentioned are unaccounted for, figures right? I sound like I am complaining, but I'm not, really, I'm not...I'm just saying...

I woke up this morning, earlier than usual because I needed to bring my nephews to school and as I dressed them, fed them breakfast, buckled them into their carseats, and drove off in a babyblue minivan from a newly purchased home in the suburbs (San Bruno), I felt like I lived a different life, one I had wished for 5 years ago, except for the 3 kids part--in my head it was just one. Anyways, if I had all my ducks in a row and played my cards right, maybe, just maybe, this morning could have been my reality...I imagined my life to be so different 5 years ago--different job, different friends, different partner, different EVERYTHING...I snapped out of it quick and realized, my life right now is nothing short of what I make of it, and that it is what it is, feel me!?! I am beyond blessed to be where I am at in my life right now--I've got a job that pays fairly well, full health insurance, a paid-off car, a roof over my head, shoes on my feet, clothes on my back, family and friends that make my world go 'round, and a man who without a doubt completes my very being...I am too blessed to be stressed, point blank! But, can g-friend imagine, one time...

I've been thinking about my life more than ever and I think it's because at this very moment in time, I am living it and it's really kick-started...It may not have happened in the order or the way I wanted it too, but I am happy with where I am at and who I am with. So, with that said, I am going to re-evaluate my 5 year plan that I started 5 years ago and aim to knock out my goals, dreams and aspirations for the next 5 years and best believe a wedding, a child, a masters, a home, and a career is in the works...#trust!